I spent most of my life walking around in a fog, consuming music, books, games, social media, whatever. Never turning inward; never attempting to come to grips with my unconscious self that ruled my actions like an unseen hand on the tiller. I was drunk on stimuli; some of it good, even great, but never bothering to reflect on it, or how it might have changed me. Not understanding that I am the interpreter; all of this is filtered through me.
Understanding ourselves is the great work of our lives.
Carl Jung offers the key to self-understanding—integration with the shadow, and the anima/animus, in a process called individuation. This is essentially Ged’s story in the Earthsea trilogy. Ursula LeGuin claims to have never read Jung before starting her Earthsea trilogy; this only makes a greater case for their truth and power. Later she came to admire Jung and acknowledge his influence; see her essay “The Child and the Shadow" which someone reproduced online here.
Fritz Leiber was also an adherent of Jung, it is nice to know that some of my literary heroes held him in high esteem. Jung’s theories work at an abstract enough level that I can understand them; a layman like me will never understand neuropsychology.
I have to come to believe in dualism. Mind and flesh (what Jung calls psyche and body) are separate but related; "two sides of the same coin," fundamentally interconnected and representing one unified life. Psyche is what interests me the most, because it is the matter of spirit. We can talk about love and honor and pride as real things though none are physical objects. But they are “real.” We need abstract symbolic language to navigate the real world.
But there is also an independent concrete reality to the world; it exists as well.
Joseph Campbell built on Jung’s work with the archetypal pattern of stories of challenges and psychological growth known as the Hero’s Journey. I have personally experienced the Heroes Journey in my own life and I see the same story and archetypes and patterns play out again and again in the broader culture. It reflects universal human experiences (overcoming challenges, the process of self-discovery, and achieving psychological wholeness), which makes it too “real.”
We must as evolved humans be comfortable with embracing opposites, that we are individuals responsible for ourselves but also responsible to a larger collective. This is irreducible truth; truth in paradox. The knights of the round table are representations of this dualism; material figures of heart and muscle encased in steel, grappling with honor and temptation and human frailty. There are patterns in their stories that we can use to understand ourselves.
Which I continue to do today.
I can't stress enough how important self-knowledge is, it is everything. Per Jung:
A million zeroes joined together do not, unfortunately, add up to one. Ultimately everything depends on the quality of the individual, but the fatally shortsighted habit of our age is to think only in terms of large numbers and mass organizations.
Scientific education is based in the main on statistical truths and abstract knowledge and therefore imparts an unrealistic, rational picture of the world, in which the individual, as a merely marginal phenomenon, plays no role. The individual, however, as an irrational datum, is the true and authentic carrier of reality, the concrete man as opposed to the unreal ideal or normal man to whom the scientific statements refer.
Without consciousness there would, practically speaking, be no world, for the world exists as such only in so far as it consciously reflected and consciously expressed by a psyche. Consciousness is a precondition of being.



